I need to do yoga.
My mom left yesterday, and after two weeks of being together and establishing a precious mother-daughter routine, she is now gone – back home to a far away land.
I miss my family.
My brother is in Los Angeles and my Dad is in Iowa.
Sometimes I feel very, very far away.
Whenever I am feeling like I’m having an out of body experience, I know I need to do yoga. There is something about the movements that allows me to feel one with my mind, body, & spirit again.
I don’t get blue very often, but when I do, sometimes it feels unshakeable. I know it is not, but it can feel that way.
In my journey thus far, I find that if I accept what I am feeling, and embrace it like a friend, it is far easier to let go of.
So that is what I’m going to do.
And let it go.
Life is not about perfection. I love being happy and feeling positive, and generally, that is how I feel, but I am just human, and being sad at times is part of the human experience.
The experience of life requires relatives.
You wouldn’t know happiness without sadness.
Or fear without love.
Or light without dark.
You get the idea. So in this instance, I’m going to purpose to be thankful for my feelings, even though they are on the opposite end of what I normally feel, so that when happiness overcomes me again (and I know it will), I will be able to let its presence wash over me like a wave in the sea.
I wish you great happiness, but if you are feeling the opposite end of the spectrum, sadness, do not fret.
And let it go.
Tomorrow is a new day…
(This post was written two weeks ago – I wasn’t ready to publish it until now. Sometimes feeling vulnerable and sharing my true feelings can be scary, but alas, courage wins. It has to or growth cannot take place. AND, I want to publicly encourage you to feel whatever it is you need to feel, but I can’t do that unless I’m willing to do it first.)