I’ve been feeling the urge to hermit.
What I mean by that is, I’ve been longing lately to hole up somewhere in the country, away from everyone and everything, to focus.
Focus on songwriting. My heart. My thoughts. My future. I strongly believe we create our lives every moment of every day – and I want to create proactively as opposed to reactively.
Life just moves so quickly. I look back on the last year and it further reinforces the sentence I just wrote. I sit in awe at how fast time flies…
Which makes me want to hole up in the country all the more. To sit, to feel, to take in my surroundings. To be totally present so I don’t let life slip away from me.
I believe we are eternal beings, but I want to LIVE this life and be who I truly am within the world/reality/paradigm we exist. And in order to do that, with my personality, I need space. I need quiet. I need solitude.
And lots of it.
I’m a bit of a contradiction. I love to perform and be out and about with people. I love the interaction, the exchange of energy, feeling, and words… but then when its over, I just want to be by myself. To take it in. To process what happens in this ever spinning Universe. I guess I liken being alone to standing still amidst the spinning. Its as if time slows down and I can grasp and understand what is happening around me.
Do you ever feel like that? That being alone re-energizes you? Or do you derive energy from others?
I don’t really think it matters how we go about taking care of ourselves… just that we DO it. Otherwise, how can we ever care for anyone else?
I am so excited for 2016. I know its going to be a fantastic year. I plan on treating it with the respect it deserves and periodically hermmitting (yeah I made up a word) my way through it. That way I can gain perspective, stay focused, and realize that most of the things that bring me anxiety are unimportant in the scheme of life.
Cheers to creating the best 2016!